Monthly Archives: October 2014

By the time everyone is up and going, we have a tight window to get packed up and out of the house.  Shelby gets up and packs quickly and efficiently.  I am vacuuming dog hair, striping beds.  Paul is tidying … Continue reading →

We leave tomorrow. I don’t really want to go home; too much left to do and to experience in Boulder. But I know that it’s time to go.  Feeling stressed. Not sure why. Still can’t think straight or function normal … Continue reading →

Looking forward to a day without an agenda, without a long list of horrible things to check off. Back at Spruce Café. Coffee with Paul, Matt and the Tillitts. Not too early. With the memorial behind us, I was anticipating … Continue reading →

Breakfast at Spruce Cafe with the Tillitts. Darling spot. Under other circumstances I would notice the details and have interest in the menu. I’m here, but I’m not here. I can only process simple thought. I snapped and lashed out. … Continue reading →

I woke in the bleakest grey pre-dawn. Consumed by nightmarish thought, tossing and turning, the hours inched on, but the dread was oppressive. Finally resigned myself to the fact that sleep would not return, I lay in bed with tears … Continue reading →

An early morning walk to town. Time on the peaceful terrace to write and reflect. Matt and Shelby up. Time to face the work that must be done. Go to John’s apartment. Into the living room. The couch where he … Continue reading →